thoughts about being a stay at home mom.

I think its hard. Probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever done (I guess I’m not technically a stay at home mom, since i watch my sister’s kids during the week, but I consider myself one, since I stay at a home). My whole life has been “career” driven, and I never thought I would actually be a stay at home mom. Not that I didn’t think I wouldn’t want to be with my children, but just the thought of staying home all day brought me discomfort…It still does. I honestly feel like I’m wasting my time. In my heart I know that I am not. I know that me being home with my daughter is the most important thing that I can do. But sometimes I can’t help but feel that all I am is a milk machine and some arms to rock her. But I know that she needs me to be home with her. I’m sure it will be better once she actually needs to taught right and wrong, taught how to color, taught how to read…but im grateful i can be there for her…even though its hard.